Abby

Don upped Abby's meds today.  I am just buying time.  I know that.  But I really need that time.  I went to visit my son over Thanksgiving.  I won't leave again until Abby is gone.  She was so depressed when I got back and I was only gone 4 days.  She went with me today to pick up the grandkids.  She has been following me around since I got back.  She makes every step I make.  I know they have short life spans, but even though my head knows this, my heart does not accept it.  It damn well hurts.

Abby

Abby's heart condition is getting worse.  Of course, I knew it would.  She is 14.  But that does not make it any easier.  It will break my heart when I have to let her go.  She has been with me since she was 6 months old.  She has been my comfort when it felt like the end of the world.  She has been with me when I was happy and so sad I didn't feel like I would ever smile again.  She has watched me cry and comforted me.  I will make her as comfortable as possible, but when Dr. Don tells me to let her go, I will.  I will not make her suffer and hold on to her when it becomes quanity over quality.  I love her so much.