Big hole in our lives

I don't think I realized what a big hole Abby's leaving would leave in our lives.  I still see her everywhere.  She would sashay down the hall in front of me stopping to look back over her shoulder to make sure I was coming.  She would sit on the back of the couch and wait for me.  Big hole.  And Jock and Duncan have become very clingy.  They miss her too.  I know I will learn to live with it.  It just becomes a part of you.  It has been 4 years and I still miss Max very much.