Smaller household

Everytime I open the back door for my guys and girls, I keep looking for Abby to run out with them.  I still sometimes cut three carrots for the little ones.  I dreamed about her last night.  I know from experience that the hurt will lessen somewhat with time.  I also know from experience that it will never go away.  Am now going to get Duncan and Jock neutered.  I have held off on Jock because he had heart worms so bad when I got him.  Well, he has been on Heartguard Plus for for 4 years so I feel safe in having this procedure done.  Duncan,  I don't know.  That will be Dr. Don's call.  We don't have a clue about Duncan's age.  He is in good overall health and is finally putting on a little weight.  I have been trying to keep enough weight on him, but he has, in spite of my efforts, remained just so skinny.  Finally, I have put him on Nutro Small Breed Puppy food.  For the first time since he found me, he is eating kibble and loving it. And he has put on a little bit of weight, about 1/2 pound and I want to hold him at that.  Jock, on the other hand has put on a little too much.  Thanks to getting into the cat food every chance he gets.  I don't think that neutering them will stop Duncan from urinating on everything.  Some days he is not a problem and other days it's like he has to cover everything.  I am so glad he is a small dog.  Anyway, we'll see if it helps if Don will do the procedure.  He may not want to.